Woooow depression... ehm, I mean.. yes!!! Life is great!!!!!

What the fuck is with people?
Ok.. here's the facts:

* I like a person
* we get along really well
* I got a crush and ey are sexy

here's what happened:

* I tried to see em more often
* I put an effort into saying more than just "Hi"
* Ey asked me for how long I'd be around this time
* Ey asked me where my new place is
* I asked em, if ey wanted to go do something on the weekend
* When we met, ey gave me about 5 pieces of advise on how to meet people
* I got a mail from em, saying how the weekends are eir's alone, and for relationship, family, sports, etc
* I sent a reply saying, I only wanted us to be friends, and that it's totally fine.

Thing is:

IT'S NOT FINE!!!

I constantly get turned down. Either I like people who like me as a person, but for all sorts of reasons don't want to be with me. Be it that they want work to strictly stay work, be it that they aren't gay, be it that they are afraid of what might happen.

And the other part of people that do like me... well I don't like them. Not in a romantic kind of way anyways.

Seriously this kind of infatuation REALLY sucks. I fall for the same kind of people every single time. Usually older than me, and with one reason or the other, not to be with me.

I just don't get it.
What's so bad in a relationship or friendship with someone half your age? I have friends who are half my age, and sure, there are thing I don't get and things they don't get, but all in all we really get along.

Stupid bloody piece of shit society!

Back to my relationship with redwine. At least here I won't get turned down.


//on a side-note: I drank my first ever Champagne at work today!

gentleman or so

Amusing things happen sometimes.
Yesterday I was told: "You're a perfect man". Just for helping a really nice girl into eir jacket and holding eir bag, ey was putting on eir scarf.
Now this whole thing would seem totally normal, if I wasn't a girl myself ^_^ And the guy who likes em, and took em on a date on friday was right next to us. So funny. Ey didn't even get the idea to do it. I wonder... but I generally wonder too much.. so I shouldn't.
I'm guessing on some part of me, ey is right with what ey said. I really enjoyed doing that, but I don't like it, when guys do it to me. Makes me feel like a granny. Now, holding doors open for me, that's fine. I don't know why I like the one courtesy, and don't like the other.

I do know that I do like that girl though. But 1) I'm far too occupied with the border-drawing-person and 2) I think ey'll end up with the non-gentleman-guy anyways...

But I liked being called a "perfect man".

so it has begun

*omglykwtfbbq*

This is it! The end of my world surely has arrived. To quote someone: web two point oh! has reached me. Oh nuuuu! I have to run. This is dangerous! It will devour my body and soul. Let alone create more chaotic limbo in my mind. Wait... no.. that can't happen to me. O.o why? Haha, cos it already has. *lol*

Now, I can't tell you what I did this for. But w7e..., I hope this will enrich my life (maybe yours, too), just the same as a well enriches life in Africa.

Right, that was politically incorrect I asume. What the heck? Who cares! This is the webernet!!! Everything is allowed. and besides, it's not like I said anything bad. Bad would be... saying that homosexual people are trash. Which I know for a fact they are not. /ok They are very friendly and amusing beings. Who else could inspire something as funny as this:



Right, this is my first post, and I gotta leave in 20 minutes, so I'll stop now.
Surely you can't stand anymore of this sarcasm anyways.

Well, w7e!