Trancecore - wtf?!

So... long time no posting.

A few weeks ago I had a virus. That really sucked. I had avast! updated and running, and still it fucked my system up. It messed up my wireless, made it impossible to install any antivirus programs or go into safe mode. So I did an internet scan of my personal files - which luckily none of were infected, moved them onto my external harddrive and formatted my laptop.
After being angry I was actually excited, 'cos for once I'd get to use format c:
But alas, that didn't work from a running windows system, so I had to use the XP CD.
It's all up and running again, although I still miss quite a few programs, but I'll just install them when I actually need them.

Class was cool last week. We had some seminar from thursday til saturday, and half the course didn't even turn up. Which is quite a lot, regarding that my course is less than 20 people. So the ones that did come had quite some fun.

On friday we went bowling. So now my legs and right arm are still a bit sore, but it was fun. Especially since after 9 p.m. they turn on blacklight and the balls as well as the pins were glowing awesomely.



And on saturday some guy I know had a party for his birthday. Me and some friends went there even though we were super exhausted from the seminar all week. We were sure we'd only stay til 11 or something... But in the end we ended up staying til 5am. :D That was a great lot of fun.
All during the party we listened to Enter Shikari - Sorry, You're Not A Winner. And frankly I fucking love this song :D
So now as an ultimate consequence of this, I'm going on a festival in summer to see them. And also half my course is going, too. Wah, so much fun ahead!

Glimpse and glimpses and borders well guarded

Glimpse

Glimpse

Glimpse

Of

T O R C H L I G H T

Most on wood with oil
I want to scream!
SCREEEAAAM out my emotion!
pounding heart & sweaty hands
insides squirming like venomous snakes on their mating nights

I lost you before I even found you. A glimpse of you in my life. Slow motion & waltz rythms. Days melt down to hours and hours melt down to days. Time is frozen in time.

Passed all my exams!

Yeah, baby, yeah!!!

I passed all my exams this sememster!!! Friggin' amazing. So happy! I had a resit last time, and that was pretty much the worst thing ever!
My notes range from 1.0 (there's nothing better) to 3.5 (and 4.1 is a fail, 5.0 is the worst you can get). And that 3.5 subject is the only one I was so sure I would fail. Lol, so great. I'm really really happy about this.

I also had time to meet up with some friends, saw the Golden Compass today, which was good. I regret that I didn't remember much of the book. It's like... 6 or 7 years since I read it (if that's in compliance with the publishing date, hehe). That's probably for the better though, because I'm guessing they made a real mess of it, although the effects seemed well enough, and the story seemed comprehensible even without having read the books. My friends didn't ask stupid questions anyways, and I know they didn't read it.
And Nicole Kidman looked absolutely, stunningly breath-takingly beautiful. Yes.



And also, this is the first and most likely will be the only movie that made me think, that dying looks beautiful. O.o Their Daemons turn into golden Dust when the person dies. It looks truly beautiful. Respects to the animation team!

Ah yes, and tomorrow I'll go and donate some blood. I'll finally know which blood-type flows through my veins, help save some lives maybe, and also it'll earn me some money.

Yush! *happy*

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Currently listening to: Tom Milsom - Catsongs II (Livia Deliberated)

still jazz tripping

So another one of my new found favourite artists of the moment is Silje Nergaard. Ey's got a super soft voice, eir lyrics are great, the music dimples along, yet it's not the least boring.

And it seems to be a perfect soundtrack for studying.

I've learned with eir songs in the background for about 4 hours now. Usually I gotta change music every 30 minutes or so when I study. There's only one song that was intense enough to wake me, each time it came along in shuffle mode.

It's eir song At First Light from the same album, and it's the following piece of lyrics that gets to me each time.

You're out of sight, not out of mind
Survived the night only to find
You're out of sight, not out of mind
You helped me see then robbed me blind

I guess it's cos it seems Silje's reading from my heart. Ey's not quite out of sight yet, but I rarely see em at all. Today I saw em for two rather short periods of time. Both of which ey robbed me blind. breathless. laughing. shaking. heart hurry.
And it hurts even more to know that ey'll be out of sight for real soon. I know I'll see em again (if Fate is not having a fit of cutting strings, or rearranging eir tapestry), but I don't know what it will be like then. Will I feel the same? Eir borders will still be there, simple matter of definition... how will I cope, will I need to cope at all?
Oh well, at the very least I'm creating my very own rollercoaster. My very own private little ride.

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Currently listening to: Silje Nergaard - Når hun skal hjem
via FoxyTunes

Woot, yay - more emo!

Yosh! Alright.
So on monday I had my exam and considering the circumstances it went pretty good. I could've done better in a different world, but it's done.
I'm already head first into the next assignment. Some research about webtechnologies. It's going ok I presume.

Coolest thing that happened this week so far is this:
I got access to a pretty good keyboard-thing. Full octaves, real size, dynamic strokes (w7e that's called in English). So I've been practising piano again. And on monday I actually made up my own song. I have no clue of harmonies and scales, yet it does sound like it's something.
It's still super short, just about 30 seconds, but I think I might be able to turn it into something. I re-did it yesterday and changed it around a bit.
Weird thing is, the few people I showed it to all agreed that the first version is better. I don't know... I think they're just different. Maybe I'll just stick them together and put them in the same song. Like one of them could be the bridge or something.

Also, I'm all emo again. Wow suprise. And when did I start using this stupid word. It's not emo. It's sad, depressed, down, dejected, disheartened, frustrated, blue, gloomy, woeful... but not emo.
So anyways... what makes me say so?
Well, I was writing again yesterday. And in the past few years, that only happens when I'm super down. I even like what I wrote, and that only happens when I feel the world will come down and crush me (which in this state of mind would be a pleasant thing).

Thanks to Annbjorg for this great pic.

Here's some extracts of what I wrote:

i'm standing naked in the rain
my eyes are closed
screwed shut to block the world
sky does what i cannot

and each of those a silent piercing scream

offering my heart to sky and night
may they enfold me in their blanket

yet deadness from inside has spread

So, the way life works, of course this has to do with love. What else. Sif!
I wish I could show the person whom this is about what I wrote. To clarify, or have a reason to talk, or to find a way to cry, w7e... But that's not possible. There's a boundary I have succumb to. I feel like I'm already tiptoeing around this border, so I don't wanna push it.

Ah well, life goes on, it's autumn, I'm melancholy, as always.
A close friend once told me: "..., I only have to look outside my window and check the calendar to know what mood you'll be in". I guess ey's right in some ways. Ah, my friends tell me so many truths. And yet I keep denying them the satisfaction of succeeding in pounding some wisdom into me.

Since, what would life be without hardships? Piece of cake. And everyone knows, cookies pwn cake anytime!

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Currently listening to: Matt Sweeney & Bonnie "Prince" Billy - I Gave You
via FoxyTunes

Procrastination!

Wow, 2 posts in one day.... Something is happening to the world I guess.

So basically I'm posting again, cos I found some links I wanna share. Needless to say, other people found the links before me, and I didn't even find them myself.

It started with a link I got posted in Google Talk. So I went to check it out.

Turns out, it's a blog with some nice photography shots. Oh, wait.. the heading for the next entry sounds interesting. Lets see.. "25 minimalistic websites".. nice.. let's try clicking that. Oh, another blog. Ok. So where are these websites? Ah... here they are... This one is cool... oh, and this one, too. Mhmh... I should tell someone about these... Uh? What's that last one? The Idiot Behind the Iron Mask? Sounds weird. Ah, but of course it's another blog. With the most stylish subtitle I've read on a blog so far...

"I’m the quintessential gentleman, the new black, the life of the party, a man amongst men, a connoisseur of beautiful women, and all that bullshit."

Very amusing, really. I like the style ey writes in, too.

"Who cares if the system proves itself to be tainted and problematic, of course. After all, why remove or fix a system that has not yet completely shut down, if it could still be used. (To use a rather pedantic analogy, why not continue using an already-lame donkey as a beast of burden, so long as all of its legs haven’t yet broken to render it completely useless?)"

So... I quote, I link, I paste... and procrastinate from studying.
Ah, well... what's life without risks and things like that. It would be too easy, if I always did the things I should. Finish in time without stress? Naaaaw... any fool can do that! You have to make it hard! Risk something! Bend the rules until they seem to snap! Yeah, baby, yeah...

Have you yet noticed? I like to finish my sentences with ... ... ^_~
It leaves room for interpretation, and as well as that, it's nicer to type..

yeah.. w7e

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Currently listening to: Bonnie 'Prince' Billy - The Seedling
via FoxyTunes

sometimes you could label me with "emo"

Actually I should be studying. It's even a subject I like. But I fail at studying. Never know where to start, what to do, and always on the move to find new music.
My greatest addiction, and yet I revel in it.

I just ordered two more Bonnie 'Prince' Billy albums from Amazon. Eir music is the best stuff I found for months. And it's so fitting with the view out of my window.

Black. Yellow. Grey. Brown.

So good it hurts: