time flies by

everything new makes may... which may or may not be true. I'm bored out of my shell today though. So I ended up logging in here. To what end I don't know. I'm pretty sure no-one except some bots reads this place haha. Still got 0-10 hits a week.

Trying to pixel some stuff together, but after 5 hours of 3200% zoom my eyes just can't handle it anymore.

go FY you stupid icons.

I also miss my fish. Ha, and that even has multiple meaning. And I was offered to climb an endless tower tomorrow. I'm not sure I want to accept that challenge. How can that be done in 5 hours?! It's kind of paradox to call something endless if you can do it in 5 hours. Or maybe it can't be done in 5 hours, but they only want to allow me 5 hours to attempt it. Oh... green gradients. That's a good idea.

brb

go watch REPO!

WHY did YOU fucking leave him?!?!?!
and WHY didn't YOU try to get me back?!?!?!

Fuck you both! And noone fucking understands this. How could they. There's noone to know, noone in my situation, noone who's unbiased. So I'm fucking alone.

THANKS TO YOU!!!

both

lalalalaaaaa happy or wut?!

Soooo I'm on holiday. YAY!

No work, no duties, nice food, nice people.. pretty much nice everything. And among all this I still find the time to randomly walk around youtube, check my subscriptions (why the hell am I not getting emails from youtube when they update?!), check out the favs of my subscriptions and stumble upon awesome stuff.

Like this.

Google!

Wow, this is the first site Google shows up upon searching for w7e. Quite amusing. Also, I get around 10 hits every week, even if I don't write anything. Even more amusing. I should check out my statistics and find out what people searched for when they hit my blog. Because I'm pretty sure they didn't search for some random blog. LOL!

So yeah, I've had a couple of not so great experiences - regarding love, what else - but all in all I'm good.
I'm going on holiday soon, which will be awesome. Or so I hope, haha. I might die, which is a serious possibility regarding where I'm going, but I'm not scared. I might be put in jail upon me leaving the country, that scares me more. I might not come home for a very long time, which doesn't scare me either. It would just give me an excuse to not finish my education - again.

Well, I'm starving, so I'll go search for some food.

oh, music!!!! How could I forget!
- Anathema
- Lambchop
- Calexico

Woooow depression... ehm, I mean.. yes!!! Life is great!!!!!

What the fuck is with people?
Ok.. here's the facts:

* I like a person
* we get along really well
* I got a crush and ey are sexy

here's what happened:

* I tried to see em more often
* I put an effort into saying more than just "Hi"
* Ey asked me for how long I'd be around this time
* Ey asked me where my new place is
* I asked em, if ey wanted to go do something on the weekend
* When we met, ey gave me about 5 pieces of advise on how to meet people
* I got a mail from em, saying how the weekends are eir's alone, and for relationship, family, sports, etc
* I sent a reply saying, I only wanted us to be friends, and that it's totally fine.

Thing is:

IT'S NOT FINE!!!

I constantly get turned down. Either I like people who like me as a person, but for all sorts of reasons don't want to be with me. Be it that they want work to strictly stay work, be it that they aren't gay, be it that they are afraid of what might happen.

And the other part of people that do like me... well I don't like them. Not in a romantic kind of way anyways.

Seriously this kind of infatuation REALLY sucks. I fall for the same kind of people every single time. Usually older than me, and with one reason or the other, not to be with me.

I just don't get it.
What's so bad in a relationship or friendship with someone half your age? I have friends who are half my age, and sure, there are thing I don't get and things they don't get, but all in all we really get along.

Stupid bloody piece of shit society!

Back to my relationship with redwine. At least here I won't get turned down.


//on a side-note: I drank my first ever Champagne at work today!