Saturday, September 22, 2007

Jim Carroll - Basketball Diaries

I just watched TV again for the first time in... months I think. It was just after 8, and I was about to watch some anime, when I thought "hey, lets check what's on TV". So there it was...

The Basketball Diaries:
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A movie I have heard so much about. Mostly that DiCaprio is supossed to be really good in it. I'm not a movie critic, but I agree. Compare eir facial expression from this movie, to what ey does in.. say.. Aviator. No comparison at all in my eyes. But anyways... that movie is not about DiCaprio.
It's about life. How - if you're not careful - life can fuck you over, and over, and over. And it won't stop doing that until you stand up to it. Sometimes you get stand up by someone else. But that's only if you get really lucky. Mostly it's you that has to do the work. Which, I guess, is the way it's meant to be. Yet it's overpowering most of the time. Seems like that to me anyways. Life doesn't just go on. You have to make it go on. If you just sit and wait, time will roll around you, the world will turn, but you'll stay fixed right where you are, rotting away inside. That sounds harsh, but it really is what I think happens.
If you don't move, you die. Simple as that.

But apart from that, this movie is about beauty. Remember the scene where he lies on the roof, naked, and masturbates. The masturbation is just a side effect of being a teenager. The reality of that scene is the beauty of the world. Away from all the chaos, and noise, and pain, hunger, scars and what else there may be. Pure beauty. "I just wanna be pure, I just wanna be pure."

Then, a little bit later, Bobby dies. And ey reads out eir lines about the rain.
"You're growing up. And rain sort of remains on the branches of a tree that will someday rule the Earth. And it's good that there is rain. It clears the month of your sorry rainbow expressions, and it clears the streets of the silent armies... so we can dance."
Beautiful. And so true.

That movie really touched something. I keep thinking quite a lot these days, but this is going a bit further. It's not just scraping, it's cutting. Usually I pull my thoughts back before they hurt. Some kind of self preservation thing maybe. Or just fear. Won't know until I go there for real. Self-analysis is a weird thing to do. Specially since you never know if you're right, or if you're just making things up to have excuses for all the stuff you do or don't do.

Okay, my mind is refusing to go further.
For now.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

so it has begun

*omglykwtfbbq*

This is it! The end of my world surely has arrived. To quote someone: web two point oh! has reached me. Oh nuuuu! I have to run. This is dangerous! It will devour my body and soul. Let alone create more chaotic limbo in my mind. Wait... no.. that can't happen to me. O.o why? Haha, cos it already has. *lol*

Now, I can't tell you what I did this for. But w7e..., I hope this will enrich my life (maybe yours, too), just the same as a well enriches life in Africa.

Right, that was politically incorrect I asume. What the heck? Who cares! This is the webernet!!! Everything is allowed. and besides, it's not like I said anything bad. Bad would be... saying that homosexual people are trash. Which I know for a fact they are not. /ok They are very friendly and amusing beings. Who else could inspire something as funny as this:



Right, this is my first post, and I gotta leave in 20 minutes, so I'll stop now.
Surely you can't stand anymore of this sarcasm anyways.

Well, w7e!