Friday, December 7, 2007

Scouting For Girls - Elvis Ain't Dead

Woah cool... Little boy pop, and I like it ^^ quite amusing. But I heard this song on the radio today, and I really liked it. Doesn't happen that often to me on the first listen. At least not with pop. So this is pop. Maybe they're not boys, but still. Pure mainstream pop. Or so I'd say anyways.
And it's friday.
And I got absolutely soaked on my way home. Left the trainstation, grey sky. Crossed the first road, and wham! 20meters and my feet were making squelch-noises inside my shoes. It actually rained hard enough for me to take of my headphones and turn off my mp3-Player. I don't think I ever did that before.
Anyways, I'm rambling, so here's the video:

Thursday, December 6, 2007

Piano

So I did it ^^

I actually bought a piano. ^_^
Man I was so nervous, and then afterwards I got pretty excited. Too bad they can't deliver until monday. But that gives me time to think about maybe moving my furniture before they bring it. I don't think it's optimal the way it's right now, so maybe I'll move it around... But not sure yet, 'cos I don't have a tapemeasure and moving stuff around by yourself can be pretty hard.

But anyways... I'm really glad I did it though ^^ It'll be so much fun :)
Now I just need a stool from somewhere. The ones they had at the piano shop were just too expensive. I'll have a poke around in the other music stores here, and see if they're more or less expensive than ebay or other online stores.
For the start I'll just be sitting on my normal chair.. ^^

Argh yay, so happy.

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

The Knife - Marble House

"The moment we believe that we have never met
Another kind of love it's easy to forget
When we are all alone then we do both agree
We have a thing in common this was meant to be"

WOOOOT YAY! I decided I'll buy my piano tomorrow. I seriously cannot wait anymore, and I can afford it so.. wohoooo ^^

It'll be a CA-51 from Kawai.



also I wanted to put a song here that I've loved for over a year now. Last january I listened to it over and over and over again, and today I used my iAudio instead of my iPod, and it came up in shuffle. So amazing, that I had it up on repeat 1 again for hours...

So I wanted to share.

Enjoy.

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

I don't get it... I friggin' don't get it

This is so confusing!!!

K, start with the beginning. (Makes sense, dun it?)
A few days ago, my ex sent me a text: "what do you want for christmas?". Now that on it's own just made me think "WTF?! Are you serious? It's been 2 years, we live like a million miles apart. You wanna give me something for xmas, but you didn't for my birthday. Weird priorities. And besides.. how should I fucking know what I want??? I have no clue." So that might sound a bit harsh, but it was mostly in the style of wtf...
So, today I finally found something I want (other than some boring DVD). So I told em, and ey was like "are you sure?" and I was like "yeah." And then after ey said ok, I realised I could ask em to come visit in summer, and make eir flights the present, cos I went to see em this summer. So ey said ey already ordered it, and that ey might go someplace else in summer anyways.
My reaction to that was "O.o" And I asked em "with whom?"
And it seems like that might be more than "my family" because ey wanted to know if ey should tell me before or after sports. So what if ey's got a relationship now?! Just the thought of that makes me freak out.
It has been really long since we were together, and when I went to see em, it was more than a normal friendship, but it wasn't bitter or too much or anything either. It was really good actually. So why does the possibility of em with a new partner freak me out so much?!?!!
And also, on my way home today, there was a trio playing swing in the train station. I stopped to listen and the first song they played was Autumn Leaves. They were great. Most people that stopped were mothers with children no bigger than up to their knees. I fucking almost cried. I so much want a family, too. But how on earth is that going to happen??? I pushed away the person who would've done that with me, and now I keep falling in love with the most impossible people ever, and ... there's like a million reasons why it seems it will never ever fucking happen.

Fucking stupid piece of shit this life is... Someone tell me where the reset button is...

definitely bipolar

i just wanna die.

Monday, December 3, 2007

wtfbbqkthx

bipolar disorder anyone?

:D

I almost pissed myself laughing about myself today.
Right, so last week I went to say hello to someone I haven't seen for *thinks* 3 months. I had a huge crush on em (which started like 9 months ago). It included the whole set of racing heartbeat, sweaty hands, butterflies in my stomach and all. It had started to fade off and had all gone away while we didn't see each other. Altogether there was only 3 e-mails in the whole 3 months. 2 from me, and 1 for me.
So anyways, last week I discovered that ey wasn't there. Someone else told me, ey would come back this week. So despite all my self-control and pre-occupation with my border-soldier, I got quite excited over the weekend. When we actually did meet today it was really amusing. At first I just said hello, because I had to greet someone else, too.
lol, I can hardly type 'cos I'm laughing again.
So I went to see em, and was basically smiling like hell even though I had told myself I wouldn't. Promptly I got asked: "And how are you? Why are you beaming so much?" I totally didn't have an answer to that... wrong person, wrong time, and also wrong other people present, but I just laughed so hard when I was alone again...
Hilarious... the weirdness of my heart.
Although I kind of unlearned how to see eir beauty. I was really happy to see em, but the enchantingness (ugh, that's not a word) was gone.
But this is a really good example to tell my friend J. Em was like: "Yeah, if you don't see em, you'll be fine in two weeks." Ha Ha Ha! Like hell... the ones I really care about always drag along for aaages.

So yeah... see how I was last week? All madness and depression and losing track of time & reality. Now look at me this week (so far). Beaming, laughing, having fun. I wonder how long it's going to last.

OMG! I'm gonna buy a piano! I already tried out 3 last week, and another 3 today. Woah!!! Now THAT made me even happier! I just gotta go retry the first 3 soon - hopefully tomorrow - so I can have a real close comparison and then decide. Otherwise I'd have to wait until summer. Oh, hmm... maybe they'll all be cheaper then. Mmmh... I didn't think of that before, lol.

Does anyone know how fast new piano models go down in price?

Hmmm.. I'll research that now.